The Annotated Chris Bledsoe Regression Transcript

Did the Holy Spirit come to Fayetteville?

Just after Easter 2012 in rural North Carolina, Chris Bledsoe was visited by a mysterious entity. This encounter drew attention from the highest echelons of paranormal investigators in the US, including many who work for government agencies. Nearly a decade later, due to the efforts of his son Ryan Bledsoe, we’re learning more about what exactly transpired that night.

I’ve transcribed the podcast episode Ryan released below, and I’ve kept most of their commentary, which I found helpful and interesting. If you’d like to read a version without commentary, go here. I’ve edited, hastily, for clarity, so there may be errors, omissions, or incompleteness. If you’re drawn in, I strongly recommend listening to the episode itself.

Introduction

Ryan: All right guys we're here we are doing regression episode two. So just a little bit of context.

Obviously I was literally there. The guy who we're reading about is my father. His name is Christopher Bledsoe, and in 2012 he experienced an entity who called herself Hathor.

In 2012, Dad saw this entity and after his hypnotic regression in 2008/9 or so, the hypnotist suggested, "You'll remember everything henceforth." When he saw The Lady in 2012 he was conscious. All the stuff that's in the document that we're about to read...he didn't need the regression. He really didn't. He remembered this, he experienced this, he's been telling me this stuff since 2012.

In 2018—she's mega famous as far as hypnotic regression therapists go, which that's such a niche thing. In her circle she's huge. Her name is Barbara Lamb. She did my dad's second regression, the one we're about to read now. This was in conjunction with the Hollywood project we were working on with the Hayes brothers, the guys who made The Conjuring. They didn't direct it, that was James Wan, but they wrote the script, they created the franchise, we got hooked up with them through Diana Walsh Pasulka. They keep telling us it's going to happen, I don't know anymore, but the moral of the story is this regression was not anything that we didn't know before the hypnotist pulled it out of my dad in his unconscious state. That's very important to understand.

He was conscious for this experience. That being said he still was able to perfectly recall it in the unconscious state and it's nice that we have a very lengthy document that is a word-for-word account.

Nick: Long story short the first regression was about the 2007 experience. It was conducted...

Ryan: We had four hours missing time.

Nick: It was conducted like a year later. This one is about the 2012 encounter with The Lady and this regression was done many years later.

Ryan: 2018.

Nick: So six years later.

Ryan: One of the questions on the internet that my dad gets asked the most is "What happened to the little spiky thing?" That'll make sense when we read the regression.

This is the final warning before we proceed with this episode. This is the truth. This really happened. After this encounter in 2012 is when all of the mega high players like Timothy Taylor, Jim Semivan, John B. Alexander, Tom DeLonge, Diana Walsh Pasulka, the Hayes Brothers, et cetera, all these high-powered people that the Bledsoes are famous for...this is when they started showing up. It's because this entity approached my father, and they were like, "Oh, holy shit! Chris Bledsoe is the man! The real deal."

They weren't shy about this. The last time she appeared was the Miracle of Fatima. Do you know about that? Catholics everywhere know about that. This is a deity bro. This is a deity. This is a goddess.

Nick: This is a deity that's been seen for thousands of years.

Ryan: Millions. This is Mother Earth. Let's get into it. This is gonna be one of the most fringe yet true things you've ever heard.

Nick: It's titled Chris Bledsoe Regression with Barbara Lamb on June 5th 2018, San Diego.

Regression

Barbara: Now you're getting ready to experience the whole of the experience when the Lady came in 2012. What is it you're aware of? Chris, as you're sleeping there is your wife sleeping in the bed there with you?

Chris: No, no, I'm alone.

Barbara: Do you sense yourself being in bed alone?

Chris: Yes, I see a door. [Chris starts to cry.] Oh Lord. I see a door. It's light and opening. It's in the ceiling. There's a hole, an opening, and I'm being drawn up.

Barbara: They're drawing you up out of the bed.

Chris: Yes.

Commentary

Ryan: I got to add some context. When we were at Jim Semivan's house somewhere in Delaware...I can't remember exactly what city and that's probably for the best...you know, high-level CIA officers probably don't want their whereabouts out there. Anyway, I was at his house in Delaware, just visiting. One of the things he told my dad is he believes my dad has rheumatoid arthritis because of that. Because this God-being literally pulled my dad through the physical house. She just made him go through the wall. Shortly after this he came down with rheumatoid.

Let's take that a step further. There's a secret CIA study by a man named Kit Green. Fun fact: he's the guy that ran the Weird Desk, the Pentagon disinformation desk. Before the guy who is harassing my family now. Kit Green passed it down. Kit Green is a very high level CIA scientist and he ran a project or experiment called the Interferon Study (or something like that). They had a hundred people that they studied and they had rheumatoid arthritis-like symptoms and all 100 of those people had been face to face with interdimensional beings like my father. That's classified, not public. Just Bledsoe things!

Regression

Barbara: What position do you think you are and if you are being drawn up

Chris: I'm being pulled up.

Barbara: Are you vertical or horizontal?

Chris: I'm flat. I'm beginning to go from flat to vertical and I see the attic in my house.

Barbara: And do you stay there?

Chris: No, I'm being pulled higher and higher to the light.

Barbara: Are you being pulled up right up to the ceiling?

Chris: Towards the ceiling. I can see the rafters in the attic. I can see the attic. I can see all this stuff.

Barbara: Is there any light in there?

Chris: Just the light that's pulling me.

Barbara: And is it continuing to pull you?

Chris: It pulls me higher and higher and higher and higher. I see the trees.

Barbara: Oh you're outside now?

Chris: Yes. I see the trees and being drawn up higher into this beautiful light.

Barbara: Is that beautiful light above you?

Chris: Yes. Yes, I'm being carried away. I'm being carried away.

Barbara: Are you carried toward that light or in another direction?

Chris: To the light. And I feel the light. I feel it. It's warm and it's loving.

[Chris starts crying again.]

Barbara: It really moves you, doesn't it?

Chris: Yes. The energy, it's a wonderful feeling and I can feel this beautiful presence, this wonderful presence of love.

Barbara: And is it very large?

Chris: It's pretty large. A door. The light is like the size of a door. That's what it looks like, a doorway, and I feel it. I feel its wonderful loving feeling and I hear these voices telling me I'll be fine. They're telling me not to be afraid, that they're here to guide me, to help me.

Barbara: And as this is happening to you, who is telling you this?

Chris: I see these three figures. They're beautiful and they're glowing and they're standing in the light.

[Chris begins to cry again.]

They're welcoming me to the light.

Barbara: So does it feel like you're actually going into the light?

Chris: Yes, I'm being pulled into the light. They're calling me. They're beautiful. They're glowing. They're very tall and glowing, loving.

Commentary

Ryan: When this first happened to Dad in 2012 we talked in great detail about it. What happened was these beings that he saw in ~2008 had a more fleshly look. But when he saw them in 2012, what he's told me in person for the last ten years, they basically de-robed their flesh and they were made of shining light. The fleshly appearance was an illusion.

Nick: Oh it was like a cloak?

Ryan: It was like a robe, it was like a hood. When they removed a hood and they were made of pure light. I'm saying they freaking transfigured, kind of like it describes in the bible. Jesus all of a sudden becomes a light being. It's the same beings that took my dad in 2007. When they were with him in 2012 they just removed their appearance and they were light.

Nick: I was not gonna say this because it's for another episode, but there's already been like five or six things that are like exactly ripped from Kingdom Hearts. A door to the light—Kingdom Hearts is a door to the light. In Kingdom Hearts light and love are the same thing. He's saying these warm beautiful loving light. The cloaks that you're describing...they wear the clothes to traverse the void.

Ryan: They're the 13 right?

Regression

Chris: There are three of them.

Barbara: Does it seem like you've ever seen these beings before?

Chris: Yes I've seen them. I know them. They're the guardians, the angels. They're the same ones that came when I was sick.

Barbara: And did they help you when you were sick?

Chris: Yes. Yes, they came when I was sick. When I was crying out, they came. They took me into the light and they're back. It's the same beautiful loving. They're angels. Angels. They're standing above me and calling me. Beautiful and loving. Their presence is so amazing and I keep their presence within me. I feel that connection. I've never forgotten that. That's how I know they're here.

Commentary

Nick: I have to stop. That is so crazy, that's so wild.

Ryan: John B Alexander—that's the guy that George Clooney is representing in The Men Who Stare at Goats. I put this on Instagram like yesterday the day before: the clip of him talking about it on Jeffrey Mishlove, one of the biggest paranormal psychology programs out there. It's crazy that my dad was talked about there and there's no mainstream press. It's crazy to me.

John B. Alexander was on the Cape Fear River with my dad. My dad said, "They're here." And they look up and boom, it appears.

Nick: He always says that.

Ryan: He knows.

Nick: That's why it shook me. He can always tell right before they're going to show up.

Ryan: He knows.

Nick: You know who else said the same thing? Dorothy Izatt. She said she could feel tingling. Like a vibration or something. She could always tell when they were about to appear. That's what shook me so much reading this right now because I've seen him do this! It's so wild.

Ryan: He's never been wrong about it either. I've never seen him be wrong. He'll always tell me straight up if we're not going to see anything that night he'll say, "I don't feel it tonight." I've never seen him be wrong.

One more thing, this is not in the document. He's been telling me this since 2012. That night they took him to The Lady, he said that they kept putting it in his head in some way or another that they're like his brothers.

Nick: I've never heard you say that.

Ryan: To his soul. There's a lot of shit I ain't said yet. If you remember from the first document, it said that they brought a soul from another place and put them in this place. They could be his brothers.

Regression

Barbara: So they've welcomed you into the light and you're there now with them.

Chris: Yes I'm in a bubble, this bubble, glowing bubble they're there with me.

Commentary

Ryan: Like Glinda the Good Witch?

Regression

Barbara: Is there anyone else with you as well?

Chris: I only feel these three beings and they're telling me to come with them. I have to go with them. They have somewhere special to take me.

Barbara: Now before you go with them, can you describe what these three beings look like?

Chris: Yes. They're very lovely and tall. Very tall. Much taller than I am, maybe seven feet.

Commentary

Nick: That's exactly what he said before.

Ryan: Yeah, he always says that.

Regression

Chris: And they're glowing, beautiful and radiant. They're pale in color, blueish white. They're emitting light from their being. It's light. It's like they're made of light. I can barely see their faces but they're glowing so you have to be close to see the details. But I see their eyes are glowing beautiful blue and I hear the singing. This wonderful singing.

Commentary

Ryan: We're about to go to a place where most people have never been.

Regression

[Chris begins crying again.]

Chris: A choir! A choir! A lovely choir singing and praising love. It's vibrating from my soul.

Commentary

Nick: Oh my god.

Ryan: It's gonna get weird man. I've been sitting on this for years.

Regression

Chris: They come for me. For the mother. She wants to see me. Mother sent them for me. They're telling me that the mother wants to see me.

Barbara: Now did your mother die from this physical life?

Commentary

Ryan: They're talking about my grandma.

Regression

Chris: No. The mother. The mother. The love. I hear many voices singing praises of love and joy and they're taking me to her.

Barbara: Are you doing that in a kind of a floating way?

Chris: We're in a bubble.

Barbara: Is the bubble moving?

Chris: Yes. Moving very fast. I can see through the bubble. I see the Earth as it's getting smaller, and smaller, and smaller. As I look back and they're there with me. I can see far away, far out in the stars and the heavens clearly. It's beautiful. It's all beautiful. And love. We're traveling far away to where I don't know. But I feel that I'm bathed in a huge ball of light. It's just a loving, wonderful vibration, and my whole body is vibrating. I feel it now, and we're beginning to approach this place. I don't know where.

I don't know where we've gone. It seems like Egypt. It's like a desert. There are these canyons, high canyons. I can see walls that are vertical to my right and to my left and as we gently float to the surface I'm with them. And the sand is so warm, and beautiful, and dry. It looks like a desert with canyon walls on either side. I can see far away, far up and ahead this light down the canyon. It's just like...it's just beautiful lights.

Barbara: And does it seem to be nighttime or daytime?

Chris: It's nighttime. And the light is illuminating our path. And we're being pulled to that light. And I'm walking ahead and I can feel their presence around me. And I can hear them.

Barbara: Are you actually walking with your feet on the ground?

Chris: Yes. Yes, this beautiful golden sand beneath my feet. It's warm and comfortable. And this light is way ahead, a long way ahead. The beings are around me and they're taking me up towards the light and I feel the light around me. I feel the light ahead, it's drawing me, pulling me closer. And I can hear them. I hear them plainly. I hear them talking amongst each other.

Barbara: Are there other beings also in that light?

Chris: Just the three that are with me that brought me to this beautiful place. They're bringing me to this light in this canyon that is way ahead. And we're making our way towards this light. And I hear them speaking to one another but I don't hear what they're saying. I just heard this beautiful language, gorgeous, beautiful.

[He begins to cry again.]

It's permeating my being but I don't understand it. It's a heavenly language and we're headed towards this light. This light is illuminating the floor of the canyon and the walls as we get closer. And it makes a turn to my left. And the light, I can see, is coming from around that turn. It's so bright. It's illuminating our paths. And we're not seeing the light yet, because it's around the bend. And we're being drawn closer. They're taking me with them, or walking with me, bringing me to this beautiful light, this beautiful bluish-white light.

Barbara: And is there any change of temperature as you get closer to that light?

Chris: It's just beautiful, warm, and lovely. My feet—I can feel this beautiful golden warm sand. It's so comfy beneath my feet. And the light's drawing me in and I'm so curious. I'm not afraid, I only feel this love, this beautiful feeling of love. These beings are still talking. I can hear them singing, this wonderful singing, in a language I don't understand but it's almost a choir.

Barbara: Their talking is almost a choir?

Chris: Yes. Yes it's the way they talk. It sounds like it's a choir singing but I don't understand it. I can feel this new presence that I felt before. And we're beginning to go around this curve and I can see this light. It's way up ahead coming from the end of the canyon.

Commentary

Ryan: Let me pause there for just a second. Could you imagine having this experience and then the CIA, DARPA, blah blah blah, showing up on your doorstep and prodding you for the rest of your life? Could you imagine how I feel?

Nick: Uh, no. I couldn't even imagine the first part! I can't even imagine...I can't imagine...any...I mean...I mean...this is...this is really, really mind-blowing.

Ryan: It's about to get even more mind-blowing.

Nick: I mean because I've known you for a long time. I'm very close to you and your family.

Ryan: But I don't really talk about this.

Nick: I mean you talk about it. But like hearing it from the mouth of the man who literally experienced it and hearing this regression, hearing him experiencing it again.

Ryan: Yeah that's like being there. It's like being there. And oh my gosh man this is so wild. Oh my gosh.

Regression

Chris: As we turn this curve it's a dead end. High up on the canyon walls where the lights are coming from, beautiful shimmering light sparkles. And the radiance that's causing me to tremble. And as I get closer I can see this: it's her. It's her again.

Barbara: And what do you see of her? What does she look like?

Chris: It's the Mother. It's the Lady. She's calling me back. She's beautiful. I can't describe the beauty of this loving, most loving Mother. She's high up on this niche, standing in front of a huge stone chair that's carved within the canyon walls. And she's standing in front of it. In front of this huge chair. It's much bigger than her. It's huge. It's very powerful. She's glowing, very beautiful.

Commentary

Ryan: He told me that in 2012. About the chair. He kept getting these flashes in his mind. Like her kinda like being on a throne in an Egyptian canyon. And he kept saying, "She's Hathor, and she told me the hidden one is Amun-Ra and Ptah." And then I looked up Egyptian mythology and that checked out. [Oh my gosh] Keep in mind at the time I was a Pentecostal so could you imagine uh the ego death I had?

Chris: Yeah. I could totally see this causing you a complete ego death. This just completely flies in the face of everything you've been taught your entire life. Or told. Not really taught.

Alex: I'm so excited to listen to this one again and edit it. Because you have to listen to this I think a couple times to completely digest. I'm absolutely blown away...I don't really have...I'm speechless, to be honest. Just listening to how beautiful it is.

Ryan: I'm playing around with the idea of putting it out there, but I'm just afraid of people editing it.

Nick: The document? Don't even put out the document, this is the document. [Ed. note: sorry guys.]

Ryan: Like the ancient Hindus, they transmitted the Bhagavad Gita by word of mouth. Like Homer.

Nick: Not comparing this to the Bhagavad Gita but..

Ryan: I am. [Laughter.] Just kidding.

Regression

Barbara: What about her size?

Chris: She's not very big.

Barbara: Is she human?

Chris: She's human. She's floating. Her feet are not on the floor. She's hovering. She's above me. She's up in the niche carved into the rock wall. And she's looking down at me. And I look back to see these beautiful glowing beings, and they bow down to her, and they're leaving me. They brought me to her.

Barbara: And what do those beings look like? Do they look like the ones who are escorting you?

Chris: They're the same ones. The guardians. The angels. The Seraphim. They're loving, glowing, beautiful beyond words. The words can't describe. And they're leaving me with her, for now. They leave me with her. I can't describe the beauty, the joy, the vibration in my soul. And she's so beautiful and loving, it makes me want to tear up and cry.

[He begins to cry.]

She's so loving.

Barbara: Let yourself really feel that too.

[Chris crying a lot here, over and over, crying.]

Commentary

Nick: So he's really truly in the regression.

Ryan: He was, in the regression, recalling completely. Let me add some context here. After Dad saw The Lady in 2012, for years, anytime it was brought up he would sob. There were extreme residual emotions from it for years. It affected his soul, so powerfully, in a positive way. Actually some of our CIA friends would mock him, not in a mean way, but it was a running joke in the CIA: "Hey, don't make Chris cry!" Because his experience was so real and emotional.

Nick: But no one could truly no one could understand. Even reading this, as eloquently as he is saying this in this regression, it's moving just hearing the words. Just hearing him describe what he's feeling. If you try to empathize or sympathize emotionally...Could you imagine feeling this like overflowing, overwhelming radiance of pure love and light as he's describing? I've never felt such a thing and it would move me to my core and make me completely, emotionally break down in complete overwhelmed stupor. So yeah, if somebody mentioned it going forward it would bring me back to that moment. It's almost like the opposite of trauma. It's like a profound healing. It's like he every time he would hear that mentioned, it was like he was being healed again. It's like the opposite of trauma.

Regression

Barbara: Feel it and really receive it.

[Chris is crying]

Chris: Oh God, oh Lord., oh Lord…Words can't describe. Oh my God. I can't describe the love, and the sadness, the sadness she has for us all. She weeps with me. She's so beautiful. I just love her. She's beautiful. Amazing. Her gown she's wearing is a sparkly, glowing, beautiful white flowing gown. It looks like all the stars in the sky in this beautiful silky gown, dressed from her neck to her feet. And I see tears. I see tears in her eyes.

Commentary

Ryan: You want to have your mind blown?

Nick: This is uh it's already happening. Yeah, what?

Ryan: Research Hathor.

Nick: Right now?

Ryan: No, not right now. Remember, she showed up to my dad as a bull. She put the name Hathor in his head. She had a gown that twinkled like the stars. [Really?] That's Hathor in the Egyptian myth. To the T. The cow symbolism, I found this out later...again, I had never heard of Hathor in my life, and neither had my dad. People don't really get that. In the South you don't really study this.

Nick: Your dad has been Pentecostal since he was basically born.

Ryan: Yeah well Baptist and then Pentecostal when he met my mom, but same difference, right?

Nick: Right, right.

Ryan: You don't just go study Pagan, Egypt shit. We find out it's not Pagan, it's actually all metaphors for consciousness.

Nick: We've talked about that before. In the Bible Belt, it is extremely taboo, to even look into that.

Ryan: It's evil.

Nick: It's considered evil.

Ryan: I mentioned I had a podcast and I was told to go back to Jesus by my cousin. This is so out of pocket for my dad to come to me and say, "I saw an entity last night, she appeared to me as a bull, she said her name was Hathor, she said the hidden God is Amun-Ra." Which you find out literally just means eternal consciousness. It's the light of all consciousness manifesting.

Amun is the invisible part of consciousness. Ra is the visible consciousness. There. You have the secret. That's it.

Anyway, I went and looked up Hathor. She has the bull symbolism because in the mythology her cow udders nourish the stars in the Milky Way galaxy. She appeared to my dad in a star dress.

Nick: Also the Milky Way galaxy.

Ryan: Yeah like milk. Yeah like udders, like a cow. It's just weird that she appeared that way. I've been digging and it checks out. You want to have your mind toasted, man?

She also was known as the Lady of the Sycamore Tree. What happened in my backyard after the tree caught on fire? Hey, Lady of the Lake, Lady of the Tree.

Nick: It literally all lines up exactly to multiple myths.

Ryan: Some people in the CIA, maybe they were kidding, I don't know, but they kept making insinuations that my dad might be...because they want to know why he is having these experiences...they pushed us to look into our genealogy. This is gonna be some weird shit. I haven't said this publicly yet. I kind of am a little uncomfortable saying it but whatever. Maybe some people can dig on it for me.

But it turns out that the Bledsoe family comes from the Bledsoe Castle, which is where King Henry VII's mother was born. That's a fact. That's history. My ancestor whose two sons or the guys that came to America...you can directly trace my lineage back to that castle. Margaret Beaufort who was a Tudor, which is an ancient royal line. The Bledsoes in history were feudal lords. Freaking Henry VII and Henry VIII come from that line. If you look up King Henry VII in history he hired a genealogist to determine if he was descended from King Arthur. The CIA came at my dad saying they think he might be a reincarnation of Merlin.

[Laughter.]

That's some crazy shit. I didn't make that up. It feels weird saying it but I mean that's what people want to hear. The stuff that the CIA tells us in private.

Nick: It's not like you made it up. You were told that. You're not just pulling this out of thin air. I mean you were literally told that.

Ryan: Weird stuff man. You want to go even weirder dude?

Nick: We're not even like a quarter of the way through this we. We should probably get back to this.

Ryan: I was about to really blow some minds. Okay hey my wife's name is Jennifer whats King Arthur's wife's name? Gwynevere. That's the ancient Welsh or Cornish origin of the name Jennifer. Ryan means little king. King Arthur is an archetype.

Nick: Okay back to the document.

Ryan: Is that not weird?

Nick: Ryan will never stop if we don't stop him. So back to the document.

Alex: Not to discredit what you're saying. I do think it's very cool.

Ryan: Yeah, it's weird right?

Alex: We just got to stay on topic here. We can't take five minutes..

Nick: We're reigning you in.

Ryan: I'm in trouble, okay.

Nick: Back to the document...

Regression

Barbara: And Chris, what about her face? What can you see about her face?

Chris: She's the most beautiful. She's in love. She looks totally human. She's very young looking, 30s. She doesn't look very old. Youthful and beautiful, in this glowing beautiful light. But she looks very sad. The most beautiful woman I've ever seen, and her love, she radiates. My body's vibrating from the energy that she's emitting. This light is going through my body and causing me to tremble. I'm not afraid. It's her presence. Oh god, she's talking to me.

Barbara: Be really aware of what she's saying.

Chris: Oh Lord. She's telling me that she brought me back to put secrets there. Secrets that I would not know until the time is ready. She's telling me things.

That I have to stay my course. That I can never waver. Her and her angels will never let me out of their sight, ever. And that they're guiding me. And I have to trust what I know. I have to trust.

And she's telling me that she'll place people within my path that were meant to be. That she's guiding them as well. And that we will come together at the right time.

And that all will be revealed in my lifetime, or at least my family's lifetime.

Barbara: Do you know what this means when she says to stay the course?

Chris: I know what she means. She's told me before. I doubted these beings that healed me. That she sent them for me because of suffering and because of the plan that was created ahead of time.

[He begins crying.]

Ahead of time, and that they'd always been with me from the beginning and before.

And at the time that we're living in is the time that was written about in the Book of Revelations in the Bible and in the ancient texts. The Age is about to change. It's the end of time. It's the Age of Pisces and the beginning is the new Age and a shift in the powers.

Every new age will bring in peace and the love of the Mother and the Divine Feminine.

[He begins crying and trembling.]

There are people that don't want this out, and that will push back. But I have to stay the course. Never, never waver from what I know. And she will guide me, and she will place the right people to help, and to protect, because a new beginning is coming. It's so beautiful.

Barbara: So this is very important for you Chris, to get this contact with her and get this reassurance. This is encouragement, Chris.

[Chris cries.]

Chris: Very much. Yes, I've been so afraid. These people, I've had a lot of people try to convince me that what I've experienced is something different. And I've been threatened, and she told me back then that I would be, but to stay the course and not waver. Never. Because the truth will come. The truth will come. But much trouble will come ahead.

There's a lot of darkness that doesn't want the truth. The Divine Feminine will bring about peace and love in this new world, in this New Age that's coming. It's coming and there's nothing to stop it. It's coming.

Barbara: And are you part of this change? When she says you must stay the course, are you part of what will bring about the change?

Chris: Yes. This message, that my experience is from love, it's not from fear. But love has its own and fear has its own. And that we should love one another. Because things are getting out of hand and the world is in chaos. And fear is setting in. And fear will overcome us all. And the darkness will win.

Commentary

Ryan: When you understand that this is a consciousness matrix. She doesn't use that word when she talks to my dad. She says it's a game, it's a journey in the soul, whatever.

But when you understand that, and you understand that you are a tiny little fractal piece of the infinite God-like consciousness, and you're incarnating here to live this little limited life.

But you have abilities. Your consciousness has abilities. When we understand that our belief directly affects reality, what would happen if the whole world believed the alien agenda? That shit would start happening.

Nick: Yeah it would manifest.

Ryan: That's why it's my life's mission to go against that lie. This is what we need to manifest: Love. It's the New Age of Peace. That's why this story is so important. It's about changing collective consciousness.

Nick: For the better. For Light.

Regression

Chris: Fear is setting in, and fear will overcome us all and the darkness will win. But eventually the light will prevail. And if I don't spread this truth, if I don't stay the course, somebody else will have to, or it may be too late.

Barbara: And now you have this wonderful important reassurance. As scary as it is with these other people who don't want this, they will be there. They will help you. They will sustain you.

Chris: They are helping me. They are. She's telling me to remember, to remember. To never forget what it is that I know. Never change. Never let anyone persuade me otherwise.

Barbara: It's very important, isn't it?

Chris: Yes. I've had so much fear that's come upon my family. People that threatened us. My children, my wife. Yes. They don't want this out. They don't want it out, this group. They want the darkness. And the Mother wants us all to love one another. Because if we don't, it might be too late. Too many lives might be lost, that we can make a huge difference. We have to, we have to. We have to tell the truth. We have to stick to what our principles are with love. It's all about love, and not fear. Fear is the enemy. Fear is awful.

[Long pause.]

It's so beautiful.

Barbara: Can you get a sense now for who this Mother lady is?

Chris: Yes. She's the Mother of all. She's the Comforter. The Holy Spirit.

[He begins crying.]

She's the third part of the Trinity. She's the Mother. She loves us all. She loves everything.

Commentary

Ryan: She's the secret piece of religion itself. There is a Mother. There's a female aspect of divinity, that's the secret.

Nick: The Divine Feminine.

A: According to one of the Seven Hermetic Principles there has to be.

Ryan: There has to be. Reality is masculine and feminine forces in an eternal dance.

Nick: This is deep, dude.

Ryan: Yeah it's the deepest story of all time, literally.

Nick: Quite literally.

Ryan: It ain't UFOs, boys. That's what I've been trying to tell people.

Regression

Chris: She's the Mother. She loves us all. She loves everything. Our Earth, our seas, and every living creature. And she weeps at us, at our destruction. But we have Free Will. We have Free Will to choose between Love or Fear.

She loves us all. She loves us. She's the most beautiful mother. The Comforter. It's wonderful. She's always been there. She's been here from creation, from the beginning of all time. The universal creation of all that lives. The manifestation of the Comforter. The one who truly loves us.

Commentary

Ryan: You know what that is, right? If you think back to your Christian days? I don't mean that in a weird way. If you think back to when we were in church and in the New Testament when Jesus...Brief rundown of the story. When Jesus is resurrected from the dead, according to Easter, right? Then he walks around with them for like 40 days or something like that.

And that's where Pentecostal comes from, I believe. The Pentecost is supposedly like 50 days after he was brought back from the dead, with Easter and all that.

In the New Testament that's what Jesus said. Basically he dips out. He disappears in the story. But he says, “But fret not because I will send the Comforter. And it will be the Holy Spirit. It'll be the Spirit of God."

And in Christian mythology it's the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. But what I'm trying to tell the world, the ultimate secret that Spirit, that Comforter, that third part of the Trinity is this female aspect of the Divine. That's what the Holy Spirit is. It's the Mother, the Father, the Son. And the Mother, that's the ultimate secret.

But bro, you want to know this? You want to know the next part of the secret? We're the son. Humanity, humankind, everything that's born into this game and you're on the journey of the soul? We are the sons.

That's the Rosicrucian shit. There's not just one Jesus. We're all basically like...

Nick: Well that's what Gnosticism teaches. [Exactly.] We're all just pieces of God.

Ryan: There wasn't just one. We all are. We are all sons.

A: And just like Jesus there will be a death and rebirth.

Ryan: Yep. Yeah. Eternally. And if anybody thinks that's dumb you know or like, whatever, "you're making that up." Watch the Midnight Gospel. And in either the last episode or the second to last episode, Clancy's meditating. And he makes a joke and he says I feel the energy in my hands, like a cross. And he's like: “Am I Jesus? I'm just kidding.”

Yeah, dude, Duncan’s smart as shit. He's an occultist.

Nick: Here's the thing. Obviously everybody listening to this can choose if they want to believe this or not. But there are so many...I mean honestly this world is saturated with material that talks about the same exact stuff. Yeah so at the very least it is really, really, profoundly interesting. But you know we're not here to debate whether you want to believe it or not. We're here to talk about what's actually happened, you know what I mean?

Ryan: Exactly. All right, sorry, carry on.

Regression

Chris: The manifestation of the Comforter. The one who truly loves us. She's here to help. She's here to help us, to guide us.

Barbara: And she will always be with you, even if you don't see her. Every time she'll be protecting you and guiding you?

Chris: Yes. She has been. She told me she would. She told me during Easter when she came. And she brought me back to give me these things. These words that would unfold as the time comes. She's the guide. She's guiding us all. She loves us all, everyone and every living thing natural. It's so beautiful.

Barbara: And Chris, can you see or tell now why she has particularly chosen you to be doing this very important work?

Chris: She didn't tell me why. She just told me that it was a plan, a plan from the beginning, before my beginning, and that they'd always been with me. She's always been there watching, guiding, protecting for this time. This time is now and it centers around the new beginning. The New Age. She's telling me that the people of this planet are making Biblical scripture take place. And that they've given us the scripture through people. And that we are being guided. These people are in power making this happen. Some in a good way, and some not so good. And those who are not such a good way to bring around the Darkness. The Dark Force. And she's in fear of our suffering, of it being so great that she's coming to warn us. It's here. It's now.

Barbara: Does it seem like the dark forces are particularly active now?

Chris: Yes. Now more than ever. Plotting and scheming to take away our love. And when we lose that, we are living in fear, and it's over. It will not be good. It will not be good. And it's coming quickly. The Earth is out of balance.

Commentary

Ryan: I think we went into the Age of Aquarius in 2012 and they did all that ritual programming, making us think the world was going to end to Mandela Effect the collective consciousness. And make that year ritually significant as like a marker for the Age of Aquarius.

Regression

Chris: The Earth is out of balance. Our vibration is totally linked. Our vibration is totally linked to her, and to this Earth, and into love, or fear. And as we are in fear, our vibration drops to a lower level, which throws every living thing, every tree, every plant, every creature, including this Earth, its vibration off. And it's beginning to shake and tremble and self-destruct.

We have to change that. We have to change this fear. We have to change it. We have to bring love into this Earth, into this world, into our hearts, and our minds to bring about peace. Never look at the Fear. Never talk of negativity. Never bring it into our lives. Remove it completely from us to stop this negative vibration from going on.

If we don’t, it’s going to be a major loss, because the Earth is encoded, she says. The Earth is encoded. It's part of its makeup to rid itself of negativity and darkness. And that it’s a process that has started, that only we can stop by love. And with love we can awaken into a new love. And a new world of peace, which was foretold. It's so beautiful.

Barbara: So it's very important for you to do this work and to inspire others to do the work?

[Chris crying very much here]

Chris: Yes. Yes she’s bringing us together for this time. She’s bringing us together. This is the plan. This is part of her plan and I have to stay the course. I can never waver and not look at the fear. Never give in to the fear. And never change for what it is, I know. To stay my course and she will be there. Her and her angels.

When there are dark forces lurking about, physical and non-physical, that would be attacking me and this family, put the trust in her and the lights. The lights that appear. It's a higher vibration. And I can never change. I know. I know. I feel it. I feel that euphoria that I feel when I'm in her presence.

Barbara: And you can go on feeling that from this point on?

Chris: Yes it's so beautiful, it just makes me cry. So sweet. This is not from sadness, it's from joy. Her joy. But I'm afraid for the people and from what they showed me. The images of what could come are not good. We can change it. We have to. We have to be in love. We can't be in fear. Never in fear.

Barbara: So do you know from her the way that you are to help?

Chris: I'm helping. She's guiding the natural way. It's what they do. They guide us. They care for us and every living thing they created. They tend to it and they nurture it. And these Dark Forces are so scary. And I've seen them, the physical and non-physical.

Barbara: So your connection with her, the Mother, is going to be continuing? It has always been continuing, and will continue to as well. You probably have more meetings with her, do you think?

Chris: Yes she's always there when I feel that feeling. It's her. Everything's a part of her that we can all feel, that if we open our heart. We have to shed all pride and greed and find that joy and humble ourselves. And we'll find that. We can find that higher place. It's so magical. We can walk with them. We can be like them. They want us to awaken. And we have to now, before it's too late. Before too many are lost.

Barbara: So the project that you're doing with Lori, is that very much part of what you're supposed to be doing?

Chris: Absolutely. It was her. She's created this whole thing and she's protecting everyone involved. She's with us all. And she's with you. She's brought us all together for this information that has to be given. And very many will accept…

Commentary

Ryan: Granted, right here when he's saying “she,” he's not talking about Lori. He's talking about this entity. Just wanted to clear that up.

Regression

Chris: …very many will accept it. A lot won't, but we have to try. We have to try and spread this love in this message. That these lights...that there is other life. Not just here, but everywhere, everything is a living being with a consciousness. The trees…

Commentary

Ryan: Sorry, I just need to add one more thing. Because I think I said this in the previous episode. This lady Lori is the one who…Dad was at her house with Tom DeLonge and they had their first sighting. It’s relevant. She is a major connector behind the scenes and she got us to George Noory.

That's that's just crazy that he said in the regression you literally met her at my sister's wedding. Anyway, carry on.

Regression

Chris: Everything is a living being with a consciousness; the trees, even the grass that we walk on has a consciousness that is pre-programmed to this world, to this Earth just as we are. We’re all a part of her and her beautiful love for us. But she weeps with sadness at what may happen if we don't find that place. I keep seeing these images I was shown. I can never forget. And that's all not to scare me but it's a part of this message of love.

Barbara: And while you're with her right now can you find out what that object was that you were given to hold? That object that seemed to be living and turned prickly?

Commentary

Ryan: This is it. This is one of the biggest asked questions about Dad's experience. Like, “What is it?”

Regression

Chris: Yes, it was symbolic. It was symbolic of our world, of the natural world. It was the keys, the symbol of the natural world. That we are all a part of nature and that everything is part of nature, the forces of nature. It was nothing more than a symbol.

Barbara: And it made an impression on you, didn't it?

Chris: Yes it did. I've never known, but I knew it was living, but it had no legs, no head, no tail. It was living. And she's telling me that we are basically the same. We have no direction. We don't know which way we are going or coming.

Barbara: Just like that unusual life form.

Chris: Yes. Yes. It didn't know where to go, but it was alive. And that we're pretty much the same way. We're blinded in fear. It's what's blinding us. Keeping us from awakening. And it's destroying…

Commentary

Ryan: Are you guys getting the message, here? Listeners included. Fear is literally the thing that is destroying consciousness.

Nick: Fear is the mind killer.

Ryan: Fear is the mind killer. Fear is the devil, basically. Fear itself, the egregiore of fear. Think about it like a spirit. Think about it like a wave of energy that when you feel fear, it jumps on you, and it stays on you, and in you you gotta shake that.

Nick: The Bible mentions that demons latch onto you that way, when you have negative emotions and feelings. There's a ton of Gnostic texts that suggest that dark spirits can only latch on to you if you are afraid.

Ryan: Think about this, you ready? Freddy Krueger. It. Pennywise. Whatever, uh, Jeepers Creepers. What do they all have in common? They feed on fear.

Nick: They feed on your fear. They literally feed on your fear. There's so many dark mythological creatures that their whole thing is they feed on fear. I mean I hate to bring it up again, Kingdom Hearts, that's literally what Organization 13 does.

That's how they manifested bodies in the first place. They made people fear.

Ryan: To be fair, I haven't really played one of those games since I was 12.

Nick: Also it just shattered my mind that it said it was symbolic of our world, the natural world, it was the keys. Like Kingdom Hearts, the Kingdom Keys.

Ryan: You have a key on your arm.

Nick: I literally do. And in Kingdom Hearts the Kingdom Key is used to unlock the door to all light. The source of all light in the universe. We're doing a whole episode on that. I keep bringing it up.

Ryan: No, it's okay.

Nick: It's just wild. I'm reading this right now, basically every single thing that we've read is archetypal. It's mentioned literally in so many things. So many things keep coming to mind as I'm reading this.

Ryan: I just want to impress on people's minds that my dad started talking to me this way and it's taken me 10 years of research to figure out all that shit that was put in his head. It’s out there somewhere. It’s real.

Nick: Be honest that's real at first did it seem completely cuckoo?

Ryan: No, I always believed my dad. But I never always accepted the Lady thing. Because I was a Christian. I thought it was a being. I didn’t think it was a god-being.

Nick: I was referencing the Lady. So you had your doubts at first?

Ryan: Let me clarify. I always knew it happened. I always accepted what my dad told me. I had a very hard time dissolving my old belief system to fully accept that as the truth. Kinda like, “Luke Skywalker, search your feelings, you know it to be true.” It's like I knew it deep down, I never doubted my dad. I always believed. But I didn't always accept. I didn't always vibe. Like, “Man, I don't care about Divine Feminine, that's wack bro.”

Nick: But like yeah now, you got that New Age Drip.

Ryan: Yeah, I got that New Age Drip, son. I'm all about…yo matter of fact…I'm all about it now. Yeah. Yeah for sure. I love the Lady. Shout out Hathor. Shout out Hathor, thanks for putting this all together. Thanks.

Regression

Chris: It's destroying the planet. This Earth is alive. And it's becoming out of balance, because we are doing it. The humans are doing it through fear and negativity. We have to change that. War, and rumors of war, has people in fear. And the fear is growing. And the Earth is becoming more and more out of balance, which is not good. I hate the fear. Oh Lord.

Barbara: And can you know from her about the other beings who they really are where they're really from?

Chris: There are many beings. Many kinds. There are those that have a very bad agenda for humanity. They prey on us, almost parasitic. And attaches itself through fear.

Commentary

Ryan: That's why I say that, online, all the time. That's why I say it. People are always like, “Proof? Do you have proof?” Well, yeah. My dad taught me that.

Regression

Chris: And they come and they come in all sorts of ways. They come from above and there are those that live among us that we hardly recognize.

There are those in the sea. These beautiful beings live in the sea, and they protect us, but they're not bad. Benevolent. They watch over us. But the sea is like the sky. It's like deep space. It doesn't matter. They just stay out of sight, but they watch over us. And they tend to every living thing that walks or crawls or swims.

Commentary

Ryan: Godzilla vs. King Kong. Gotta watch it. You'll understand that. That they're showing you the symbolism there. Have you seen it? They like go deep down to the ocean and shit? And it's like another world yeah. They go through a portal, literally a portal yeah, it's crazy.

Regression

Chris: And there are others. There are others from other worlds, other dimensions, spirits of our loved ones exist among us.

Commentary

Ryan: Yeah, like our ancestors, that's an ancient concept.

Regression

Chris: We just have to find love. But I don't know who they are. I don't know. I've seen some. I felt the fear from some.

Barbara: Some of the other beings?

Chris: Yes. Because they don't want this message. They don't want the love. They don't want her message out there. But the lights, these lights, these beautiful orange…the burning ones, they're the ones with the triangle, the good ones. The ones that helped create us, universally.

Commentary

Nick: Hold up. That's Gnostic. That helped create us? It's a very Gnostic thing. There's the God above all that's out of sight, that you never see?

Ryan: That’s consciousness.

Nick: Right, and then there's one step below that. The God created beings just below that which would create the physical.

Ryan: But in the Gnostic myth that's Sophia, which is the Lady. And then her child is Ialdabaoth, which is like the false god, that manipulates this reality.

Regression

Chris: The good ones, the ones that help create us universally and every living thing. We have to evolve. We have to awaken. They tend to us like we're in a terrarium, like a farm. And she loves us. They love us. But there are those that will come, that don't. And that's why the guardians will keep those at bay. But we have free will, and that's our choice. There are other things that I can't remember what she told me would come in time, at the right time.

Barbara: But in the meantime, you were to be bringing the good in. The lights to counteract the dark, is that right?

Chris: Yes, that's the course I have to stay. And if we don't spread the light, the darkness will overcome. She's the Mother.

Barbara: So does that give you any inspiration now to carry on and stay the course?

Chris: Absolutely. Yes it does, and nothing can waver that. I'm willing to go, to give what it takes to do what I have to do.

Barbara: And not buy into the fear and darkness?

Chris: Never buy into the fear.

Barbara: And that's quite a challenge when you and your family are getting threatened.

Chris: Yes.

Barbara: But if you keep remembering about this wonderful mother and the other beings who pledge to be with you always that will help in dealing with the fear?

Chris: Yes. She's always there and I know they are because they come when I cry out in fear. In fear for my family or for myself. They're always there. They're always near. They hear everything we say. Everything. And they direct our lives. If we allow them to. We would have to allow them to.

Commentary

Ryan: That's the key. That's the key. People are always like, “Well, why don't I see anything?” Because you don't allow yourself. You're so damn skeptical all the time. And you know, I don't mean to be offensive to the people who really want to see, and they are so desperate to believe. But like the thing is, you just got to realize, this is what my dad has taught me since I was a little kid, because I used to be that way. That's when I had that mind-blowing experience when they moved like a cow. I think we talked about that in a previous episode. I think it was the regression episode, maybe the first one.

And I always was like, “Well why don't I see?! Why do I only see the lights in the sky?! Why don't I see an entity up close like Chris Junior? He didn't even want to be there. Why don't I—”

And dad was like, “Son, you gotta chill. Your time is nothing compared to their time. Just because you don't see them right now…‘Oh, they must not be real if I don't see them.’ Well, you gotta slow your roll.”

Nick: That's also an extremely skeptical standpoint.

Ryan: And egotistical.

Nick: So you're already closing your mind just by having that approach. “If they're real, why don't I see them?”

Ryan: You're in the wrong vibration already if you think like that. You got to open yourself. First of all, you got to humble yourself a little bit. Because these are godlike beings.

Nick: If you're starting this off by seeing these videos and being like, “Oh yeah, that looks like a plane.” And you're like, “I really want to see these things, but I just can't believe it when people don't have the right kind of videos.”

Ryan: Like, “I won't believe it until I see it.”

Nick: Okay, how about: believe it first?

Ryan: Like, Naruto said: you need to fix your consciousness.

Nick: Believe it upfront, or at least just open yourself to the idea.

Ryan: Yeah, allow yourself to entertain the idea.

Nick: At least just say, “You know what? Maybe I'm just being way too skeptical. Maybe I should do some research on my own, and see what this is really about? Maybe this is real.”

Just open your mind to it, and then, you have to be open to it.

Ryan: When you silence your ego and get it in check, that's when the magic happens. It's no different with the Phenomenon. Don't think you're gonna outsmart them. You're not.

Regression

Chris: If we allow them to, we have to allow them to. If we don't, we're on our own. And that's what she asked of me. She didn't make me. She asked me, would I do this?

Commentary

Ryan: She bargained with him.

Regression

Chris: This is my burden that I must bear. I'll never change.

Commentary

Ryan: That burden is obviously telling his experience to the world. Which he's been doing, and I'm doing now with him.

Regression

Chris: I'll never change. There's been so many to try and convince me, from every angle, from my family, to churches, to friends. But I will never change.

Barbara: They tried to convince you not to talk about these things?

Chris: And to not believe that it's good. Dark forces come and try to tell me that I'm wrong, and that it's bad. That it's demonic. That it's evil. It's negative. And threaten me at times if I don't change. But I will never change. Because I cannot. I cannot not tell the truth, because i've made an agreement that I must stick to.

It's the Watchmen. She gave me the Scripture of the Watchman. I can see beautiful images.

Commentary

Ryan: Does it say what the scripture is? Okay real quick, paraphrase, Joel the Watchman, it's a scripture in the Old Testament. I'm gonna very much paraphrase here, Google it. Joel is this dude in the old times. Basically someone told him, “If you don't blow the trumpet, the enemies are coming, then all the blood of the innocent who are slaughtered will be on your hands.”

And that's what the Lady told my dad. If you don't go out and tell your story…Let's add a little bit more context. When my dad had the experience in 2007, it was so horrifically traumatic after the abuse we received. They got a CIA plant, James Carrion, to make the documentary. They tried to ruin our lives, and for a while, it did.

I mean, we were the talk of the town. People hated us! Not only did they disbelieve us, they hated us! And they mocked us, and they ridiculed us. It was traumatic.

So dad was quiet for five years. He didn't ever want to talk about his story ever again. But in the back of his mind, it was like a thorn. It was like what Morpheus told Neo. It was a splinter. Dad knew he had to tell it, but he fought it for five years. I call it Five Years of Darkness. And that's what the Lady said. If you don't go out and tell your story, the burden that we've given to you, if you don't go out and tell your story, and bad things happen to the world, blood will be on your hands. Because you kept your mouth shut. And you didn't share your experience.

Nick: It’s when Morpheus showed Neo the future that would exist…showed him where it would eventually lead to. If you don't break out of this matrix, don’t accept that this is the future reality, this is the future that's awaiting everybody.

Ryan: And I'm gonna be honest, and then we'll get back to the document. I'm gonna be perfectly honest. This is great, the interaction is great, I love talking to people. I love doing this, and it's awesome getting all the views, and the followers, and blah blah blah. You would be a liar if you said you didn't like that. But that's not why I'm doing this. We're still human. It's fun. Yay, people like us now. They're not like viciously mocking us. Great, we appreciate it.

But the reason I'm doing this is for that reason. Because I've had experiences too. A lot. And literally grew up with this dude. I was taught all this by him since a young age.

And I understand this is real shit. And if it doesn't get out, blood could be on my hands for not telling what I know. I feel called to share this. I'm very compelled to share my life's experience. It could be said that I'm a whistleblower for government abuse. And it was just said.

Nick: It could be said. I think there's a common association…you feel called to share this message?

Ryan: Yeah, I have no choice. It drives me nuts not doing it.

Nick: Just speaking from my perspective as somebody who grew up in the Bible Belt. Among some people, there’s this common negative association with Evangelists. They say they're called to share this story or whatever. But here's the difference: They are literally evangelizing Fear. What is the story that they tell? They say, “You're gonna burn in hell if you don't do exactly this.”

“Yeah, you're gonna burn in hell forever!” They're literally like a fear cult. And I don't want to offend anybody. I believe in—

Ryan: Love. True love.

Nick: You should be able to believe whatever you want. If you’re a Christian, a Catholic, a Buddhist, a Muslim, anything. I love you all. I love you all, and I will not discredit any of your beliefs.

I'm just pointing out, from my perspective, if you have two people that feel called to share a message and one of them is spreading a message that “you're all going to burn in hell” and the other one is saying, “Hey guys, we just need to love each other. It's enough of this negativity. We're killing ourselves. We're literally destroying ourselves. Can we find some common ground, here? Can we love again?”

I personally would be far more inclined to believe in a message of love and compassion than “you're going to burn in hell if you don't beg forgiveness for stealing a cookie from the cookie jar.” I don't know and that sounds like I'm mocking. I don't mean to mock. I don't believe in that.

Ryan: I thought it was funny.

Nick: Thanks, I appreciate it. All I'm saying is that I personally believe in a message of love.

Ryan: It's all about higher vibrations. It's a pole, this is what the Ancient Egyptians taught us. Like Hermeticism. I'm not going to go in-depth, because I know we're running out of time. It's that reality itself is a paradox. The Chinese called it Yin/Yang. Ancient Chinese. Like the Dao/Tao, but it's it's it's truly like a pole. Like Einstein, whether he really said this or not, there's that famous quote that, “There was a young man in class who said actually the absence of heat is cold and that young man was Einstein.” You know what I'm talking about? That meme or whatever. But it's the same concept with reality itself. It's like the absence of any good quality is the negative quality.

Together: The absence of light is dark. The absence of love is fear. Absence of you heat is cold.

Ryan: Exactly. That's how it is. You just gotta get that in your brain. It's archetypal knowledge. You just gotta focus. How do I find love? How do I find love? First of all, if you have a hard time connecting with love, there's probably some sort of trauma that you went through that is preventing you from accessing that sort of vibration, so to speak.

Okay, you're a tough dude. I get it. I grew up in the South. Most of my family are carpenters, and hunters, and fishers, and blah, blah, blah. I met every tough guy you can think of. Dude, my uncle was so tough he punched a guy and killed him.

Seriously. My great grandpa Stewart, he was a legend in the community. Now, back then, cars were a little smaller, like in the 50s and 60s. Dude, he could smoke a cigarette and put his back against the wall, and hold an arm out and he would challenge the whole community—Grace Creek, dirt roads, probably a few hundred people—and they would come out and people would throw little hootin-and-hollerin parties and try to see who could nail Stuart with their car, and he could hold the car back with his hand. He was tough, dude.

I'm just saying, I grew up around tough people. So don't come at me like, “that's cheesy with that love shit.” Dude, when I was a little kid, my dad would do this just to flex at me because I would watch like Dragon Ball Z and Goku who's always doing one arm push-ups and shit. My dad would see me watch that. He got down in front of me and he did 50 handstand push-ups in a minute. I'm just saying I grew up around tough people. So don't act like a badass, and come at me like you think you're too tough to experience love. That's what I'm saying. That's what I'm trying to say. I was raised around some of the manliest men in the whole world.

But when you see a being come at you and it's like the only way up is love, you start to think a little bit. And I've come to realize through my psychology studies, because I do have a degree in that. And I also have debt in that, too, but if you're this kind of person who thinks you're so damn badass that you can't feel love, you probably at a very young age had some sort of trauma that severely damaged your ego.

Nick: But also it is societal.

Ryan: That too. That's where the trauma comes from, societal pressure. Growing up in the South, my grandpa…I mean I'm not speaking ill about my grandpa, I love him to death, but I was a sissy if I didn't comb my hair. You wanna talk about societal trauma, he would call you a sissy if you drank your drink with a straw. With a straw! Or if I like put ketchup on my meat. You know what I'm saying? I grew up with societal pressure.

But I've opened my mind because I've seen beings of light.

Nick: If you just think about it as simply as you can, who doesn't love being loved and loving? Every day we love. And every day we are loved. I get it, I get it, you want to be tough and whatever. But is that not truly the most beautiful feeling that we are capable of experiencing? I think 99.9% of people on this planet would say, “Yes, it's the most beautiful thing that exists.”

Ryan: I think that in this little reality we experience through the five senses, we can only understand the higher reality through metaphor. Because the higher reality is not physical, it's completely energy. We can only understand it with our Sixth Sense, which is our Consciousness, our Imagination, what have you, your third eye.

And I believe that love itself, love is the cosmic force that flows through all life. All life has a spiritual center where that frequency of love resonates. That would be your heart center, or your heart chakra. I believe that love is the cosmic force that flows through all life, kind of like blood flows through the human body, pumps to the heart, etc, etc, and actually animates your vessel.

I think love is consciousness.

Nick: Love is the soul. Love is light.

Ryan: Love is the force.

Nick: You got me wanting to watch Interstellar again. Because remember that was the conclusion. He finds out in the end…

Ryan: Love goes across every dimension, across time and space.

Nick: Love is the answer, he says that. He has this breakthrough moment. I'm getting chills. I can hear the music in my head.

Ryan: Love is the highest occult power. Harry Potter. What protected him from Voldemort? His mother’s love. That’s Masonic shit man.

Nick: You know what else is interesting is the occult and Masonic stuff and all this stuff. For my 24/25 years before I knew about any of this stuff, it was really scary. I thought of it as having a dark connotation.

Ryan: That’s by design.

Nick: I believe that. I believe that now. Now that i'm actually doing research for myself, it’s like, hold up here.

Ryan: It’s a show so they don't look at the message.

Nick: The message here is love. That's the unanimous message. It's pretty shocking that there's been this societal movement that has tricked so many people into fearing these deeper wells of knowledge. When as soon as you dip your feet in these wells of knowledge you realize: “Oh, everything points back to love.” Everything points back to love. What's evil in love? Nothing.

Love is pure good. It is it is purely good.

Ryan: God is love, love is God.

Nick: Wow, we should probably get back to the document. We got to finish it at some point. This might be my favorite episode we've ever done. This is just extremely profound.

Ryan: Good. Hopefully the listener will feel the same way.

Regression

Chris: It's the Watchman. She gave me the scripture of the Watchman. I can see beautiful images.

Barbara: Do you feel like you're still there in the canyon with the Lady now?

Chris: I feel more that she's inside of me.

Barbara: She's always with you?

Chris: Yes. She's always with you too. She's with us all. She's with anyone that will allow her. All we have to do is seek.

Barbara: And is there anything else that you need to see about this experience?

Chris: No, ma'am.

Barbara: Let's just go now to the very finishing of this experience where you find yourself back at home again.

Chris: I'm awakening at home.

Barbara: Where are you when you're waking up?

Chris: Back where I was in bed.

Barbara: Is your wife there?

Chris: No. She's not there. She's in the house but she's not there.

Barbara: So you're waking up the normal way you always wake up?

Chris: I'm waking up with tears from what just happened, the most amazing experience. Oh God, words can't describe.

Barbara: Just notice too, while you're waking up, are you in your normal sleeping clothes that you went to bed in?

Chris: No. I'm fully dressed and I don't know how. I don't know how I'm dressed but I'm barefooted with clothes on. This is so strange.

Barbara: Just go back a little bit, just for general interest. Go back to how it was that you happen to be fully dressed, just how that occurred.

[Chris takes a deep breath.]

Barbara: Obviously you were returned just see how it is that it happened but you were fully dressed.

Chris: When the door opens, I hear their voices, and they come in directing me to get dressed.

Barbara: So they came into your room.

Chris: Yes. They directed me to be dressed.

Barbara: And do you know why?

Chris: I don't know why. I'm just getting dressed.

Barbara: You can ask them if you like.

Chris: Because they're taking me. They want me to get dressed to go with them into the ceiling.

Barbara: Oh so the getting dressed happened before you were floated up through the ceiling, through the attic and the roof, up into that bubble.

Chris: Yes. They came into the room and I crawled back into bed and that's when it pulls me up into the light.

Barbara: So you're fully dressed at that point in bed.

Chris: Yes. They did it. They directed it.

Barbara: I see. So maybe it's very appropriate that your wife wasn't right there because that would be an unusual thing for you to do, to get fully dressed and then go back into bed.

Chris: Yes. And they knew she wasn't there. They are all-knowing. Guardians.

Commentary

Ryan: I literally said that earlier they're omniscient.

Regression

Barbara: Is there anything else, Chris, that you've been wondering about? About this whole experience? About the beautiful Mother, or the other beings?

Chris: At this moment I can't say. I feel as if I'm on fire.

Commentary

Nick: Holy Spirit is described in the Bible as a fire. That consumed, in your veins.

Ryan: She said she's the Comforter.

Nick: He and he said earlier that she's the Holy Spirit,

Ryan: which is the Comforter.

Nick: The Holy Spirit, going to like the churches I've gone to, they describe it as a fire, a holy fire that you're inviting into your body. For Today mentions it in many of their lyrics. The Holy Spirit is like a fire.

Regression

Barbara: Wow.

Chris: Yes, it's so hot.

Barbara: And is that a disturbing kind of hot? Or how would you describe it?

Chris: It comes from returning to my room, that's why I'm hot.

Barbara: Is the room hot?

Chris: Yes, because I'm dressed and the room is very hot.

Barbara: That's just a natural thing from where you live?

Chris: Yes.

Barbara: So normally, when you wake up, you'd be hot because the temperature there is hot. But you wouldn't be as hot as you are fully dressed?

Chris: Yes.

Barbara: So now that answers your question as to why you were fully dressed.

Chris: Yes

Commentary

Ryan: Do you know what's so mind-blowing about that right there? Now that I really think about what you just said. That regression was such a powerful experience, Dad was remote viewing the past. And his consciousness, present time, you know 2018 Chris Bledsoe, was sitting on the couch, doing the regression. His consciousness was feeling the sensation of being too hot in his clothes on a night six years previously. The power of hypnosis. That shit's real man.

Regression

Barbara: And the one you've been thinking of as the Lady, that is now the same one you are thinking as the Mother? All the same wonderful, glorious being?

Chris: Yes. For all eternity, she cares for us and all of humanity and every living thing. But Earth is first. And Earth has a code. The code is triggered by fear from humanity. It has in it an imprinted code and controlling population. And all of humanity, it was built into the foundation of this world, the nature to keep itself in balance. And as humanity grows, the fear becomes more strong, which affects the resonance of this planet. And there are plans from the Dark Force to overcome us all. It's what it wants to do. But we must overcome the fear, and not give into it.

Barbara: So you are to help many other people to not give into it and to recognize it and to not go into fear.

Chris: Yes. And to understand that what we are seeing is not all evil. And that it's part of love and creation. The angels and the principalities, agents of their Creator or Creation. They work for Creation.

Barbara: So you have found that the Church, even the Catholic Church, is open and responsive to this kind of teaching?

Chris: I think that they will be. They will be. They'll want to be. And that they'll accept. A good many will accept the truth. It's been hidden away.

This is in Biblical terms. She said the Apocalypse to reveal that which is hidden, to tell the truth, because we have a choice: To live in fear and die by fear, or live in love and find happiness and peace. We have that choice. And all of humanity at this point deserves the truth. It has to be told. It has to be told. That's been mandated to be told. We have free will so we have to.

Barbara: We have free will, and we can choose. Then perhaps more and more people will need to be educated about the fact that we have to do this.

Chris: Yes.

Barbara: Between the fear and the evil, and the good and the light.

Chris: Yes. Yes.

Barbara: And you're very much a part of that.

Chris: Not that I wanted to be.

Barbara: You've been very, very chosen for this, and very assisted and accompanied in doing this. And the pledge to use that this accompaniment and this protection, this love, will continue to be with you.

Chris: Yes. It has to.

Barbara: So it's very important isn't it that you have revisited this today and know it more fully than you have known it before.

Chris: It's so joyful, their presence.

Barbara: And hopefully, you can go forward from this point with your mission and with more of a sense that you are always guided and protected.

Chris: Yes. I know that without a doubt. I know that and that's why they come when I call.

Commentary

Ryan: Keep in mind. One of the people employed by the Pentagon in this little ragtag group called the Weird Desk---that's a Pentagon position where…people should be furious over this…their job is to smear people like my family who have real experiences. Anything that's weird but true. Because the powers that be, the military-industrial complex, the Pentagon, they don't want that shit out. They don't want anything that threatens their worldview. They came to our house and put a death threat on our family. Just like I said in that regression, that we're all my family and you know many others are always protected: an orb appeared and scared that dude away and he never came back.

Regression

Chris: Yes, I know that without a doubt. I know that. And that's why they come when I call. When I'm afraid and I call, they come to reassure. And they come when others need help, out of love, if we ask them to. Protectors.

Barbara: So the others, they really need to call to them, don't they?

Chris: Yes. Everyone does.

Barbara: So, do you have the sense that there are many, many wonderful beings too, just willing to help and waiting to be called to?

Chris: Yes. Many throughout this universe, throughout creation. They created us out of love and kindness. And the Dark Force tries to destroy that which is created in fear and in hate. And that has to go.

And this is what has to be told to make this world understand that this new knowledge can bring about peace. Because too many people are dying and suffering over religions, thoughts and teachings. This is why it has to be told. The truth has to come out. The revealing. The truth that we're not alone, and meaningless, and that we come from nothing. That is so much a lie, and not true. We're very special. And that we were created in Free Will to find that, for our soul to journey on to a new place. We can't live in fear. We have to shed that away.

Barbara: And so much of the world culture seems to be encouraging fear, encouraging fear of all kinds of things, all the time.

Chris: Yes. Yes. And the Dark Forces know that. And they actually engineer it. And it breeds upon itself if you let it fester. And it becomes more negative. But we have to tell the truth, we have to change everything to find that new place, that new beginning. And it's time. It's now. It's now.

Barbara: So, do you feel in you a little more energy for getting on with it, and dealing with it?

Chris: Yes ma'am, I do.

Barbara: Great.

Chris: I feel guidance now and understanding of things better. But there's still so much unseen that’s there. This is about a disaster coming, that I was shown, that doesn't have to happen. And if we don't change, we're going down the wrong path. Humanity will never awaken. It will be stolen from us through fear and darkness.

The truth will bring love and peace upon this world, and it will be through the Mother and the Love from the feminine, the Mother Energy that brings about the light and nourishment and love to this world. Because the Man Energy is so rough and war-like but it has to be moved to the side, and the women will rise up. She told me this: the women will rise up. And they are. And we've only seen the start. They will become empowered and lose that fear they carried forever.

Barbara: And as this happens, they can help to balance out the energies that have been going in the wrong direction?

Chris: Yes. Yes. The Mother is Love, that's what we need.

Barbara: Well, is there anything else you need to think about or see or know at this point right now?

Chris: Not at this point. I'm in a place of processing. I keep seeing images flashing. Beautiful, living colors, flashing in and out, of things that are coming. Processing. It's amazing. I'm so grateful.

Barbara: And those beings are grateful for you and what you're doing.

Chris: They healed me. They came at my lowest point. They came. They set me up on solid ground, and they came, because I was crying out for help.

Barbara: And they'll continue to do that too, Chris. Continue to be with you, and come even if you come into another really low point. And you can call out to them and they will come. They've committed to that, they made that promise to you?

Chris: Yes. Yes, they did. And the Mother too.

Barbara: And they apparently work really well together, the beings and the Mother?

Chris: Yes. There are many beings, many. But they work for her. She's the Mother of all, the Comforter. She's here to warn us, because I wouldn't listen. And I was so attacked, she had to come herself, knowing that when she came I would not doubt any longer.

Barbara: Well, you'll be continuing to process this as you go forward, this day and all the days ahead. And I encourage you to remember, as you need, the incredible love, light that is there for you. And the support, and the guidance, and the imperative nature of doing something to change the way that it is on this Earth.

Chris: Yes. It's all about nature. It's alive, and we live within it, and there's a lot of nature we can't see, forces that are here but unseen.

Barbara: But you know from your own experience that this is real, and true, and lasting.

Chris: Yes.

Barbara: So, if you're ready to come back to this time and place in the situation, just know you will carry this with you now. That it's become more into your awareness, it's much more full, much more something you can trust. As you carry on…[Summarizes the session and ends it.]

Commentary

Ryan: This is what Dad told me: God is Nature. There's one God, a being sitting on a throne. That's not that's not the highest reality. The highest reality is when you look at all of nature, and all life, and all beings, the farther you zoom out, the farther you see there is a harmony to all life.

You might not see it. You might look at the ant hill outside and it's chaotic. You see the whole city, and all the cars, going to and fro in traffic.

Nick: Think about the circle of life and like the food chain. Every living thing on the planet somehow, some way, they contribute to each other's lives. They affect each other's lives, even if they don't know that they do.

Ryan: The Greeks taught that the universe you know. Pythagoras, I think, taught this: the harmony of the spheres, the celestial bodies, and everything, is music, it's musical notes. The ancient Hindus taught it's all a dance, it's a cosmic dance, Shiva. But this universe is harmonious. It's not random.

Nick: It's like the butterfly effect. A butterfly could flap its wings and affect something on the other side of the planet.

Ryan: It's connected in a web. In ancient India they called this Indra's Net. And every node, every intersecting piece of the web in this metaphor has a drop of dew. And if you shine a light, the light reflects on every drop of dew, on every node of the web. All of reality is connected. It's fractal consciousness.

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